I feel like I am already failing at this Lent thing. You know what I planned to do, what my intentions were. You also know that I haven’t consistently done any of the things I set out to do.
Give up all to drink except milk and water? I fell on Day Two when a coworker brought me a fancy drink from Starbucks. Pray a Rosary or Chaplet of Divine Mercy every day of Lent? I fell on Day One. Really. Ensure that I set aside 15 minutes a day to read Scripture – and then actually do it, reflecting on what I read and prayerfully pondering Your Word? I fell on Day Four, because it was the weekend.
I’ve fallen a lot.
I know there’s still time. I know the season is young. It’s only Day Six (not counting Sunday.) But this, this is the time I usually start to rationalize my failures.
“Well, that penance was really too hard.” “That prayer routine is too unrealistic.” “That self-improvement plan was too intense.” And on I go.
It’s so easy to do this when I fail. To console my ego. To lie to myself.
Remind me, Lord, that on your Way of the Cross, you fell – not once, but three times. And you’re the Messiah, so it makes sense that I fall waaaaay more often. How humiliating, how hard that must have been for You. And yet – and yet you struggled to Your feet, balancing your crushing cross, and You got back up. You kept moving forward.
Help me keep going. Help me persevere.
***Shared at www.theologyisaverb.com and www.reconciledtoyou.com/blog.html on 21-February-2018 for #WorthRevisit. Go check out the link-up!